Thursday, August 17, 2006

NonDuality & Manifestation

This is a sort of reply to the comment posted in my earlier post about release technique and non duality and law of attraction.

So my friend, I am glad to hear that you are also in the non duality camp just like me. But, the doubts like everything else is arising a fear which says what if all this is not true and I am really real not just a non existent story.This is a sort of fear in giving up control and fearing about the consequences of not having control. But I just cant help it, because all this fear is also just arising in me and I dont have any control over it.

I had started in this field ,I could say with the sedona method and the release technique which led me further and further into non duality. Actually it was a comment by a reader of this blog which led me to the non duality stuff and there was no looking back after it. Yes, in the beginning I had wanted to manifest abundance and prosperity around me by releasing and letting go. There was anxiety,there was panic about whether i would finally get there or not. But frankly speaking, I didnt know where I wanted to go finally.I was having problems setting goals because whatever goal I was setting I could see that getting the goal would really not make me happy. After manifesting my goal, I would be saying "okay, this is done! What next?" Thus there would be no relaxing in the now. There would always be a searching for happiness in the future.

Non duality has changed it all. I have read books by Bob adamson--"What's wrong with right now if you dont think about it" and by Ramesh Balsekar---"Confusion,No more" and "The seeker".

I have also read Nisargadatta Maharaj's book "I am that".

All of these books were really good and changed my whole outlook towards life.

But still, there is a feeling that it would be good if the manifesting things were real and under my control. It would be good if I were able to manifest my life and lived the life my way. On second thoughts, I see that what I am saying as my life and my way of life and my desire and goals are all due to the way that I am conditioned. I cant help wanting what I want, desiring what I desire. It is just not upto me.

All problems are for the person and I am afraid of not looking after the person---As if i was controlling the things.

Anyways, I think I am just rambling. Please give your questions and share your views on this using the comments section.

Thanks for reading.